I signed in!? Wow... its been.... awile 8D

Its hard to think that someone could be inspired and depressed the night before such an epic event. Well.... My cosplay didn't some in for various reasons, so I got one from the Holloween Outlet. God. The people who work there oviously have nothing to do with themselves. Two girls just HAD to come over and 'help' me and my mom wile Alissa (xxlislisxx) chased my 4 year old brother Matt around. And of COURSE my loud mouth mother LOVES the help. She's so loud whe she talks! It pisses me off. She wonder why im so quiet! Its becuase I cant ever speak for myself. I tried to make it clear that I didnt want "help" trying on different Kimono-like things by saying "Mother, this is embarrasing" "We have the stuff we need, I can try this on without people watching me..." GOD. Everything there looks slutty on the package. Most of the stuff would have fit me if i didnt have huge ass boobs. Damn. It made me feel fucking fat. Im AVERAGE. Seriously. I had $300 to go, but now my mom borrowed $40. She's like "Will you be mad?" um, HELLO! If I say yes you'll just get pissed off and tell me how selfish I am. It not a question mom. Its more like "Im taking $40 from the money you earned all by yourself becuase you saved it all the way from the beginning of the summer, and dont get mad becuase im going to spend it on gas money, beer, and cigarretts." Yeah, whatever. Bitch. She's making me bring lunchmeat and stuff to Anime Boston so I can make my own food like all the other girls are doing there (according to Jackie's mom.) Get this. I paid like $50 to be able to stay in the room with like, 7 other people so I could sleep on the floor both nights? Seriously, are you kidding me? WTF. Three of us will be on the floor. Cant we switch it so we can each sleep in a bed one of the nights? Jeez. My Back is going to kill. Im so depressed. Its going to be embarrasing to wear the "yukata" me and my aunt made out of bathrobes. Its so EMBARRASING. I wanna just wear the good one I got. At least its pretty. It's like people dont understand how important it is for me not to look like an idiot. Im already treated like one! Seriously! I just need to THINK for a second. I didnt get much practice talking. My Mother did that for me. I men really. She's SO loud. We went to go get a haircut (and I loved it) by when me and my mom were talking in the little waiting area its lick she was ehcoing throughout the circullar Rob Roy. She also talks to ANYONE. The receptionast didnt speek the best english in the world, but they couldnt stop talking about thier kids. INCLUDING ME. Dont talk about me when im right there. She was saying how great an artist I was and blah blah blah. She dousnt even care about ym art, but she BRAGS about it. Whenever i show her anything she's like "thats awesome" and just walks away. You dotn do that! Hello! Whats awesome about it? Who do you think it is? Any flaws? Liek my coloring choice? Have I improoved? nah. Its "awesome". Jeez, this stuff I just had to get offmy chest. Im so worried about tomorrow. I dotn know how well I will fit in. I mean.. I know everyone there cept' Teyumi (jackies friend from conneticut who's real name is sarah) but still... Im quiet. It's just. I DONT want to be a BOTHER but I dont want to be IGNORED. God. Just. God. Im concerned about my hair too. The Black Orched Ball is there and I need to look HOT. I mean, I cant do my hair or whatever without a straightener, which I dont have... but.. *sigh* I just.... dont know. Not to mention stuff with Alex is.. complicated. It's like im going to burst. My friend is IN LOVE WITH ME. And he annoys the shit out of me. He's litterally asked me out 3 times with suicidal like notes and im just like "NO GODDAMN IT! YouR A FUCKING POT HEAD ALCHOHOLIC SMOKER! NO." Of couse I dont say it like that, but come on. Its just annoying. Nobody wants to go out with him because he's a self centered jerk who wont SHUT UP and says things in the middle of class liek "I didnt do my homework cuz i wuz rokkin out with my JUG-A-LOW homies" WTH is a jugalow? Aparently it has something to do with a band or whatever. But i just keep thinking "jigalow jigalow jigalow" and if he was good looking it would be true. All he does is brag about how he got to "second base" with this junior named Megan who only dated him because she pittied him. Man, I PITY HER. I mean, god, nobody cares! Your an annoying wanna be wigger moron who got caught by his mom doing pot and BRAGS about it 3 weeks in a row. Damn it. Go away. Let me know who my real friends are. I have NEVER had friends like this, I dont want to go back to how I was before I met them all. They litterally saved my life. My pot head friend included.

Jeez.
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Love me? Miss me? i'll try and have a good time. I know I will.
I feel better after saying all that! Phew.

so,, let me see here. Oh yes, well... I havent been on here so much. I've been on ~Ashie-kyou most of the time. I cant explain it, but when im inspired to do something little, its usually TDI. Its just so easy! Easy, and im GOOD at it. People actually LIKE my stuff. Shocker... So, thats why I havent been around.

Buuuut! Some good things have been happening to me! I ordered a mikuru cosplay, im working on a short length kimono, and, I put together the PERFECT outfit for my first day at anime boston. I think about it EVERYDAY <3 squee~ I also played this SCARY SON-OF-A-BITCH GAME. Its called Hotel626. You can only play from 6 to 6. haha, geddit? Well, I cheated and had ~XxLisLisxX play it for me at 4:00PM. We changed the time on my computer because its a good way to play right away if your impatient (me) or too scared of playing in the dark (also me). I simply guided her through it. Me, being me, had already started playing up till the baby part, with another friend, and read a guide on the WHOLE THING. Cuz I Cheat <3 Anyway... THE GHOST IS HAUNTING ME! I can't sleep without the hall light on, my T.V. with no volume, and my dog. Even then I swear on my soul, I was in some kind of- OH MY GOD, THE GHOST KILLED ME IN THE GAME! D: I was like 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh! Kill it!' and it killed me! (in the game oviously.) Alissa liked the game. Dammit I'm so tired. Seriously, go play if your not scared. Believe me, its just too realistic for me. The best part is the phone call part </3

Im so jumpy, it hurts ;3;...
So tomorrow im going to see L saves the world! I already know the differences in the movies and the anime/manga (My friend told me) im im super pumped! Well, im going to be uploeding some collabs with Sierra. We have a few that I need to scan! I hope you guys like, becuase they are all traditional! XD

OH! I bought The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya english Novel 1!!! Its JUST like the anime, to a T! I Love it! Im olmost finished, its unique. haha, Yuki reference ^^

OH AND AND AND!!!! I have been EXTRA busy with 11 puppies. Shade's girlfriend Katie had 11 puppies (4 boys) like, um.. a little over 5 weeks ago, and I go everyday to the top of the hill to play with the puppies! Kelly (katies owner) is keeping my favorite for me!! I ADORE her! We have to agree on a name, so far we have Summer and Lily. I came up with summer, becuase the day I decided to keep her was the first hot day seince the start of winter. Lily, she came up with, its cute, but eh. So anyway, I need unique and cute dog names. She's black, with white chin, spot on her chest, and her paws. She looks like shade just small and ears down. She's also wicked fluffy! So cute! Nyaa~ I dont even mind cleanign puppy poo. Lenthy process, not worth talking about.

Well, thats about all the interesting stuff I got to say! your probably bored by now, so im going to go check my hallway for ghost's.

BYE-BYE! <3

STRICLY TDI/TDA ART BY ME HERE!!! Im no longer submitting TDI/TDA art on this account. Pleame watch me!

(and anyone wanna make me an icon? :3) -uber lazy-

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And well, Im going to Anime Boston with 9 other friends from school. Im meeting up with my friend Chibi/Sara one of those days. I needs to babysit the 7th grader XD Which reminds me, has anyone here ever gone to a con? Why dont you tell me what to expect :3 Better yet, how much money should I save for it? I already have my pass paid for, and my part of the hotel price. My friends ,,and , are some friends that im going with. Ive saved over $200, and i cant believe i hasnt gone twords video games, manga, Anime, or pocky yet. Im a stiffler, i never spend my cash!
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Also, anyone wanna help me find a cosplay?? I want to go a Mikuru from The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya, that way i wont need to dye my hair. Also, I really wanna wear the purple maid costume, but any others besides the frog will be fine. lol... randomness.
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Bleh, I owe people stuff from forever ago. Meh. I swear it will be done, but i haven't been in the mood to do anything for quite some time. -lazy-
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Lets see, My graphic communications shop is going well. Its not entirely what i expected. Its more or less templates and text formatting, make posters, logo's, ect,ect,ect. Everyone is so lazy in there. All we do is pretend to work untill break do a bit till lunch and talk about anime all day. Whoo! I sit between Jackie and Lera so its so fun! (:devluckie13neko: and ) good times... good times. XDDDD The seniors are really cool to use. THEY DONT PELT US WITH TWIGS. awesome.

~~UNTILL NEXT TIME~~
-Ashie-